spring sisters

outside in the weather, two girls are enjoying themselves and the tentative sun.  will it stay?  they don’t care because it’s here right now and they will be here, too. am i here with them? somehow there is a way that i can still live a parallel life with my children.  that they can be

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this may not be the life for you

so, we’re moving. we’re leaving the suburbs and going back into the city. i grew up in detroit.  my father did, too.  he found himself an upper peninsula sweetheart and brought her to the motor city.  they spent their first half of married life in that city and then moved us to the suburbs when

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the friendly skies

somehow it has been arranged and i’m leaving my life for a few days.  i’m going to summer in april.  i’m going to waiting welcome.  god does the strangest thing in his body – he gives friendships that don’t end. it is not a rule and it doesn’t happen everyday, but somehow i have friends

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and if i go there

looking out the windows for something. something else. the unnameable, elusive place where there is complete satisfaction – happiness, restoration – a place without want. is there such a thing? such a place? this just around the corner, just around the bend longing in my soul – always waiting for the next, the next, the

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thoughts from the driveway

the chalk is hitting with a hollow clink as kids draw butterflies a couple of feet away from my head.  maybe i should check my phone or i could bring out a book to read.  nope.  not today.  today i’m going to lay down on the driveway and feel the the coarse cement underneath my

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the not yet now

it’s difficult dealing with a god for whom time is irrelevant. if i get a glimpse of his heart, his mind, for me, it brings life stronger than the world’s promise of a grave six-feet-deep. when a strong conviction of what is for me to do with my days sweeps in , i want to

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a better time was had

it was their vacation.  on valentine’s day we passed a tiny store.  the four of us had gone to the lake shore to find it uninhabited with good reason.  the wind near to blew eleanor over and so we set out for ice cream. but i got the little towns mixed up and after the

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where we’ll be

we left our lives for a week and can be found up north in the snow, examining frozen shores, with ten bare feet running to the hot tub after dinner.  pray for us if you think to.  we’re contemplating big changes, taking advantage of the silence that snow and wide open spaces bring. gratitude list

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anvil heart

my shoulders tense ready to deflect love, concern and affection.  i would rather be a shrivel and hanging skin, alone and untouched.  sometimes i don’t even know why this is the way i feel, i only know that i have to protect myself against love.  an innocent question has all kinds of motives and i

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