the presence of god

seasonal heart

seasonal heart

these days of muted light feel just about right. sometimes my heart feels wide open, easily accessible, like the bright blue. but not lately. no, when the sun gets further away, a thin sheet of ice weathered from the events and circumstances of the year […]

where is god?

i’m opening the clasp between four fingers, just at the tips.  it is delicate work putting on a necklace.  silver on the very edge of nail and then it’s behind my back and in my mind’s eye where this smallest loop is waiting. it comes […]

i love to tell the story, because i know ’tis true

the faith and writing festival begins with chapel. i like a poet in the pulpit, leading with poems and prayers. we sing ‘come thou fount’ and i watch the singers first.  then i look over to where the poet sat down and notice everyone’s mouths […]

nice to meet you

they told us to wake up and take our bibles out into the woods. they’d tell you which verses to read and the only requirement was that you had to be by yourself. i’d never done this, but each morning i went. i looked around […]

sometimes you make heavenly beings angry

i had a dream. every so often the god of the universe will talk to me in dreams. what’s up with that? when i think that god has better things to do than be concerned with the intimate details of my life, i reduce him […]

the boy in the yard

he’s out there now by the mulberry tree.  he stands and eats just like his dad and he found the tree along the new fence, in the new yard, at the new house. three days earlier i sat on the grass and heard the splash, […]

space for the uncontained god

i’m waiting for snow. the green exposed and the mud that’s been frozen and come thaw again is welcoming christmas eve this year. and i am like this. i am not as i should be. i’m the green grass of winter. i need to look […]

hearts on display

some things aren’t anyone’s fault.  sometimes there isn’t anyone to answer for tears that fall or harsh words said.  sometimes all we can do is remember that everything isn’t done by human hands. it was a busy weekend and so i prayed for an hour.  i […]

when i want to know what’s next

Moses said to the LORD, “You have been telling me, ‘Lead these people,’ but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, ‘I know you by name and you have found favor with me.’  If you are so pleased […]