Category Archives: love
hand me that baby!
christmas was as close as i came to jesus as a child. i wasn’t told the story. there wasn’t a countdown to the manger in my house. i didn’t hear about the blessed virgin turned away at the inn ad … Continue reading
what god thinks of down syndrome
this weekend held world down syndrome day within it. 3/21. if ever there was a reason to dust off the ol’ blog, this is it. a conversation with my dear friend, jamica, reminded me of what being mazzy’s mother has … Continue reading
he loved me
i like to remember that i was without hope and without god. i was foreign to the promises of good towards me. i was separate and excluded from all of it. no luck around every corner then. until – and then he … Continue reading
tell me the old, old story before i hurt someone
i’m remembering last night. i’m remembering the tone of his voice when he interrupted me. i’m remembering the exasperated sighs when he had to do what i do all the time for children. i’m remembering his apology that seemed half-hearted. … Continue reading
when madeleine l’engle kicked my ass
after i hung up the phone and told joshua what i’d just learned, we knew that our tiny church plant was done. there had been signs leading to that moment in our kitchen. but this was it. the final nail. … Continue reading
godfathers and cancer
“i spread a bunch of marigold seed, but only a few came up this year…i don’t know what went wrong.” my father is sitting next to his brother on a golf cart. they’re riding around on the 3 acres i … Continue reading
wanted: one husband
i’ve spent the summer with my family. my husband has blurred. he’s one of the five of us. we’re all in this together. but i don’t know. sometimes i miss the two of us. apparently he could have been found … Continue reading
girlfriend is better
“we’re you afraid to get pregnant again?” some questions tell more than they ask. no. a simple answer to a complicated heart. let’s unmask the question, shall we? “did you consider sterilization after you had a child with down syndrome?” … Continue reading
eleanor
this girl of ours turned five last month. i remember you, eleanor. your hidden form on the ultrasound screen when she said, “it’s a girl.” i cried and laughed at the same time. i remember sitting on a couch in … Continue reading
make real money working from home!
“so. are you doing anything? are you going to be going back to work?” she asks and i feel irresponsible because i haven’t thought about working for money in months. i stumble around and say no. i explain myself. i … Continue reading
