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here i am to worship, here i am to bow down

here i am to worship, here i am to bow down

i smell her hair. strawberry shortcake. thin arms and legs with a head too large for any human body. i inhale and wish for the scented air i remember from the doll of my youth.  i would have taped that doll to my face like […]

baptizing children

baptizing children

they put her in a white robe. it was her birthday. eight years old. it was easter and she had decided to get baptized. i don’t know what to think about baptizing an eight year old.  can a child really understand the decision that they […]

godfathers and cancer

godfathers and cancer

“i spread a bunch of marigold seed, but only a few came up this year…i don’t know what went wrong.” my father is sitting next to his brother on a golf cart.  they’re riding around on the 3 acres i grew up going to every […]

girl versus the world and her mother

girl versus the world and her mother

“let’s go around the room and say whether or not we’d abort if we found out we had a child with down syndrome.  okay?” i’m at a book club.  only two women in the room know my oldest child.  i came because they were reading […]

christian boobs

christian boobs

  i have a slight problem. i’m a christian. there it is. that’s it really. i just saw that there is a movement to bring back head coverings in the christian world blog-o-sphere. head coverings. a head covering movement. there has been blog after blog […]

when you’re privileged

when you’re privileged

  i am just another white woman walking in his shop. just another tourist on vacation with my blonde hair and my cute as a button daughter. i’m picking up sandals and trying to decide if i want to spend too much money on shoes. […]

girlfriend is better

girlfriend is better

“we’re you afraid to get pregnant again?” some questions tell more than they ask. no. a simple answer to a complicated heart. let’s unmask the question, shall we? “did you consider sterilization after you had a child with down syndrome?” “were you so devastated that […]