i’d slept over at julie’s and so when her family woke up for church on sunday morning, i did too.  we piled into their station wagon and drove to st. peter and paul’s.  i pulled at the sleeves of the dress i borrowed, the dress […]

when lent gets in the way

lent is a little tough for me. it can seem like a further cementing of the basic misunderstanding of god’s heart for relationship. that misunderstanding goes like this: if you give up the things you really like and settle for a life where you’re always wishing […]

lent and the internet

internet. i’ll see you in forty days.

a child through the window

we are talking about fasting, she and i.  we are smoking outside, drinking wine and talking about jesus on the eve of ash wednesday. “when you fail at fasting during lent,” i say, “that’s kind of the point.” i’ve never been impressed by the idea […]

jesus and only children

The next day, when they came down from the mountain, a large crowd met him. A man in the crowd called out, “Teacher, I beg you to look at my son, for he is my only child. luke 9:37-38 Soon afterward, Jesus went to a […]

and if i go there

looking out the windows for something. something else. the unnameable, elusive place where there is complete satisfaction – happiness, restoration – a place without want. is there such a thing? such a place? this just around the corner, just around the bend longing in my […]

wanted: a heart of flesh

rend your hearts and not your garments, and return to the lord, your god. – joel 2:12 judgement seats, i’ve learned, are very comfortable. plush and supportive, it is so easy to decree with our stolen knowledge, always lacking the whole story, from the throne […]