good life

ode to scott cairns’ ‘hesychasterion’

when i make our bed i will take a leafy branch and with it, smooth the sheets of softest green, down to wait until the day dims and we find one another again. when this daughter finds me writing in the shifting shadows on my […]

after a while we took in the clothes

that damp on the arms of hanging clothes on the line. it is clean. the breeze that lifts that damp and the sun that dries it. a light-filled room if ever there was one. these days my moments are like laundered shirts, damp and clean, hung […]

your life from here

there’s a man out there in the snow with his dog. he’s clipping back the vines on these frozen lanes.  my romantic notions of owning a vineyard evaporate a little bit because that’s what these lines represent.  the hard work of a farmer.  the day […]

vulnerability and the grocery store

if there is any person out there expecting a child with a disability, i have this little piece of advice for you.  get ready for what i like to call ‘the grocery store brigade.’ i can’t count the number of times i’ve been shopping, deciding […]

where there’s a peaceful sound, lonely souls hang around

when the dust settles near the table legs again, the ordinary life can change into a meaningless one.  in a twinkling it goes from flight to plodding. at times like these i look for a star to hitch my wagon to. a business plan, a […]

too few octobers

i have realized that i am short on time. these limited hours in a day are full.  there is a house to straighten and that book i want to write and those books i want to read and those other things i said i would write and […]

the stars in my eyes

each night the starry sky waits above us. whether it’s obscured by city light or goes unseen by eyes that won’t look up. it’s waiting there. we drove the kids to southern ohio and saw the stars again for the first time. we took them […]

tiny dancer

and it’s one of those days. wind and yellow curtains blowing cool right into the dining room. you know the ones. a day. what would you like to do while the sun shines? go outside and read your bible. stay inside and sweep the floor. […]

making beds

children pick up dolls and start to play while i pull bed sheets tight across twin mattresses. “let’s make this bed, please.” someone totters over to the other side and begins to chant, “tuck.  tuck.  tuck.” i am down on my knees and i watch […]

the family vineyard

my mother is worried. the grapes ripen on the vine and the white clouds sit in bluest sky. i agree. there’s a lot to worry about. she’s telling stories. grandma bessey’s house.  she and her brother and sisters would stay there when her parents fought […]