a fairytale they say

the snow started coming down and eleanor wanted to build a snowman with her dad.  she waited patiently.  she let her wishes be known.  she left the request on her father’s ear. we were busy.  abe had a dance on friday night.  saturday was special […]

pie crust promises

the boy has started a comic book club and i have a tooth in my front pocket.  the girl smiles at me.  both of her front teeth have gone missing. things go missing sometimes, like whole summers, entire years even. a new friend and i talk […]

all that i own does not compare

i forget that the most compelling thing about me is jesus. i forget. in the forgetting i lose myself and become ungrateful, confused. am i a good mother? it is because jesus has wrought my iron will in his gentle hands. is my marriage remarkable? […]

online competition and apple orchards

  when the if:gathering sold out in 42 minutes, it sort of threw me. there are writers that i’ve come to enjoy online and some are promoting if:, so i decided i’d go.  the day before registration they opened it early to their email subscribers, […]

blueberries and the will of god

“let’s stay here for a few hours at least.” so much of what i’ve hoped for this summer is right in front of me. berries on a branch. sunshine. children close and concentrating. mazzy is crouching low and finding what others miss. “is there more […]

when the bride of christ wants a divorce

i stole moments to see you.  walking down stone paths to find you, to be alone with you. when your words breathed close to my ear, the whole world turned upside down. water came from the rock.  i saw through your eyes and loved this […]

with this ring

two children couldn’t stand it.  mom’s door slightly closed.  it was too much. “mom!  you have to see the dining room table.” sunlight is coming through my windows and from their faces. and he’s in the kitchen.  he’s making hash browns.  dad’s famous hash browns. […]

ferris wheel church metaphor

the ferris wheel never stopped. they opened the doors like greeters on a sunday morning and ushered you right to your seat. it was unnerving. i hesitated like at the mall before an escalator. it inched. barely perceptible. it kept moving. the wheels of the […]

grace land

why does grace threaten me like it does? i walk up snow covered hills with children and more snow falls down all around us.  they are insatiable.  whatever is good, whatever is lovely – these children will take these things. i feel like i’ve had […]

it is very good

her voice sings out.  the notes are a jangle and the rhythm would cause one to wonder ‘what is that noise downstairs?’ without god we struggle.  we don’t like the unstable, transitory nature of the world we find ourselves in.  we want to hold onto […]