continue as you began

someone told me i was disobedient and just not simple enough.  why can’t i take god at his word and believe? great.  just great. okay, it wasn’t actually a person who said this.  it was a book. alright, it was a theologian from 1916 yelling across time. fine.  it was oswald chambers. i really like

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auditioning for the role of pastor

what comes after a god-sized dream? i’m on my knees, leaning over a bathtub.  again. i’m sitting on the living room floor folding clothes, watching television.  again. i’m putting forks where forks go, spoons with spoons. my everyday is to make the small world of this family work. everyday. but what of god-sized dreams? there

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ferris wheel church metaphor

the ferris wheel never stopped. they opened the doors like greeters on a sunday morning and ushered you right to your seat. it was unnerving. i hesitated like at the mall before an escalator. it inched. barely perceptible. it kept moving. the wheels of the machine don’t stop. i got in. of course i did.

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famous c.s. lewis quotes

“it would seem that our lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak.  we are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant

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o lord, make haste to help me

our help is in the name of the lord. our life, like a bird, has escaped from the snare of the fowler.  indeed the snare has been broken and we have escaped. they say that when times are good that it’s easy to forget the lord.  then when times are hard, we call out to

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grace land

why does grace threaten me like it does? i walk up snow covered hills with children and more snow falls down all around us.  they are insatiable.  whatever is good, whatever is lovely – these children will take these things. i feel like i’ve had my hands closed tight for a while now. if grace

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consider it, neighbor

there are a couple of finer points in genesis that i just don’t understand. one – the tree of life.  sure, there was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, but god seemed to not want adam and eve anywhere near the tree of life.  what gives?  they couldn’t live for ever in

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the highest form of flattery

we were next to the fireplace and her eyes were shut tight as she sang out to god. don’t let my love grow cold.  it was getting close to the end of autumn and when the song turned unexpected and the words sang to be clothed in white so she wouldn’t be ashamed, i felt

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