i stole moments to see you. walking down stone paths to find you, to be alone with you. when your words breathed close to my ear, the whole world turned upside down. water came from the rock. i saw through your eyes and loved this world. i forgave myself. when i saw through your eyes everything was new.
that was twenty years ago.
i walk to the same places and sit in the exact same spot. it is dry. there is no water spilling down. there is no small pool to take off my shoes like a holy place and walk away refreshed. i hear your words and they are twenty years old. i know how you see like the back of my hand. your words are the same. they speak the same things. it’s always the same with you.
sometimes faithfulness is mind numbing.
sometimes you can take faithfulness for granted…