glory be and saints alive

i’m spending a week with words.

i call home and hear the news of home.  at home there is a lot going on.  babies just found out and children needing thermometers.  a true friend hearing truly hard news.  but i’m not home, i’m here.

it creates a tension in my stomach and i wonder why do i think it’s so necessary to spend a week with words?

i say this,

“what am i doing here?  there are so many important things happening at home right now!”

and she says this,

“what you’re doing is important, too.”

ann voskamp says that we think our work isn’t good enough because we think we are not good enough.  we accomplish little because we think little of ourselves.

we meet downstairs for prayer at 8 and at noon and at 6 and at nine.  we pray through these few, fleeting days of writing down what we think god might be telling us to.

we try.

from the tomatoes on the sill to the cathedral towering above the community garden, this place points toward that one word.

try.

so at silent prayer this morning i pray for home.  i lift up the friends and the children and the newest life.  i pray for not being there and not needing to be and knowing it’ll all go just fine, maybe better, without me.  i let it go and i head back upstairs to try to write again today.

4 replies on “ glory be and saints alive ”
  1. Good.
    God is good and he has all of us and them and you in his mighty and loving hands while you are gone. God is good and he has all of us and them and you in his mighty and loving hands while you are with them. Write. Be.
    Be anxious about nothing, but in everything, through prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, offer your requests to God, and the peace of Christ which passes understanding will guard your heart and mind through Christ Jesus our Lord. I probably misquoted that and I apologize, but it is my prayer for both of us today.

  2. Cherish this time away, indulge in your writing, know that this is what you are meant to do, finish what you have been working on for so long. It is important what you do. Be greatful that Joshua is such a good dad.

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